Yo pple!
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Haha...not been free lately...yarh...you'll realise some freako hiding behind a stack of manga....laughing to herself...reading the language she is worst at...(ok...she only knows 4 languages...Eng,Jap,Chi and Gib)(Gib short form for gibberish...)...Yups,tats me!hehee...Slam Dunk is sooo cool...esp Mitsui heehee... (>.<) guess im really late...my frens keep telling me..."Slam Dunk?i read it in kindergarten!"okok...pardon me...so tell me what other fabulous Manga am i missing out?(Bhish*...ouch!...whad did u do that for...[study Ic:what are YOU doing!time to study!!!]...opps haha okay...so now i guess i gota put manga on hold...but barely hehee...juz carn survive wout it...shh*...dun say too loud.

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Anyway...we live in a supernatural school building...im not kidding.Recently,its either the steps grew taller or the gravitaional force in the compound has increased. Juz climbing up to TA34 makes me huff n puff like some big bad wolf...and climbing down makes me pant...haix... age is catching up with me...nnnoooOOO!!!
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Su*

Hey pplezzz!!!
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hehee...with NCC over already...we as seniors totally have not much to look forward to in canoeing this year haha...but iguess we still could go down for ball games and help out during training....this past 1 year, 6 months and 3 weekss has become a large chunk of my entire life...i probably have trained a lifetime's worth of trainin haha...and for that...i present...
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<カヌーたちのレクイエム> (Requiem of the canoeists)

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Yupps...we all started in different crafts...T2,T1,K2,K1,C1,swimming...but J1 was a great time...no worries...juz go train...w the seniors pushing us hard...i rem most of us could hardly do proper push-ups haha...throughout the year,going through crazy training...like 4-hour soccer(2nd half was the ball running after us instead of the other way around...)carrying our bags to climb stairs(the time where i felt in myself the strong urge to throw my notes off the 4th floor chem labs...)hiking up bukit timah hill(ahem...not hill....its bukit timah mountain-more suitable for rolling down than climbing up...)arghh...too many arl...feel free to add on or use your own imagination haha...

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J2...the time where all the troubles come pouring in...training...competition...injuries...STUDIES...we ended up stressed,agitated,spiteful, and even sometimes in tears...but you noe what...i think it wasnt that bad aft all since we've all gotten over it...take it as a new type of training!a.k.a mental n emotional training...(since we more or less had honed our physical part in J1 haha) but i guess this was the time where you really knew who were your ture friends...those that stood with you,giving words of encouragement(that usually din really solve the prob...but hey...its the thought that counts rite...)

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oh man...our J2 life sounds so sad haha....but J2 is also around the time this blog started functioning!!!now thats something to celebrate about!a few paragraphs are much too little to describe our wonderful journey...if i get serious n write...woah...i dun think i'll finish til our juniors graduate haha...but anyway...although we have sort of reached the destination...its only a stopover...coz its time to set a new destination...to plan for a new trip...coz i believe there is really no such thing as a final destinaion...

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b4 i go...rem to control yourselves...dun eat too much unhealthy food...or you may sink a T2...haha

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Su*

Do not read this if you are having a bad mood...it may make it worse...

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ok...today's training was not bad for me...coz i did k2 w sze...going at a hard pace...n balance was no sweat...but that was juz the gd part...throughout the training we kept seeing the korean students. that the senior team was supposed to help, rowing out of the bay...to around the 400m mark...we were like?!?!so we reminded the bay pple to keep an eye on them.went for another round...n guess what...we saw another lone t1 rowing outside AGAIN.So we thought the bay pple are really short-handed...so we decided to go in to help out.

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But when we went in...i realized exactly WHY we were short-handed.

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Becoz most of the helpers were just on their own...trying out crafts that they felt like...leaving but a few pple to save capsizes and teach strokes...

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Yups.i was rather angry.actually i think i was more disappointed.coz there were some pple that i did not expect that would do such stuff for their own selfish desires.i really never expected to see them like that.i even regreted a little for comin back to help.

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Is it because we are sort of graduated,that we go back to the selfish pple we once were?since nationals is over,should we just erase all our values like a clean slate and continue to work for our only own and no one else's goals?

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If i were there,i cannot be 100% sure that i would not follow the rest n indulge in what i want.do you think i would not like to row the C?However,the feeling when i saw the rest playing a fool when i wanted to help,makes me realise what i never want to be.

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yes,its fun to try other crafts.nationals is over,no need to be too uptight.But seriously,was that the time to be trying other crafts?when you were supposed to help others?

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sorry if i sounded harsh or offensive...this is juz a scaled down version of how i felt at that time.but aft typing it out,i feel much beter alr.i think everyone alr noes their mistakes...so let's juz not repeat it again.thanx for lasting through this horrible entry.ill try not to write too much of such stuff in future.

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Su*

If you believe,miracles do happen.
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That is like a super common kinda saying...i used to think that pple that think like that are juz lying to themselves...but it happened during the Perlis race...i rem we were last(4th)...budden coz we alr lost the jun mens race...we really din want to lose AGAIN...i was at the brink of madness...really...i mean...i wasnt like myself anymore...n we juz...i dunno...grrarhh...n we squeezed in to a 3rd...yar...we din get 1st...but to me it was the first time i actually believe miracles existed....
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2nd time was during SDBF...i duno what the hell happened...but it was really a fight til the end...we were all so desperate....n the last charge was impossible unless you are crazy...which we were haha...
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Actually,before nationals...i already knew who my opponents were...i mean...i didnt intentionally want to track down who they were...but i juz knew...was i afraid?sorry to disappoint you pple...yes i was...
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but at least for the heats,i tried to go in with a calm mind...juz whack...doesnt matter.but at that time...i was sort of numb...like i din really care much at winning...it was the lets go down n race attitude...not the i will crush whoeva is in my path! attitude...so i guess it was mentally weak for me...i guess i was lucky in the heats...but i din feel good winning it that way...so it did wake me up abit...
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I didn't dare to believe in miracles...coz its like the impossible...impossible is not supposed to happen everyday juz in case you were wondering...haha...but today was not juz a normal day...
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I told myself i cannot lose at the start...coz i'm a sort of catching up person...i usually am behind than i slowly catch up...so my starts are not that good...but today i really tried to push hard for the starts...sprinting trainin really showed its effect...my start lasted til aft the first bouy....i was on par w the other 3 of them...
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aft tat...i was trying desperately to control my body...tapped once...grrr...n direction was abit off...i was v afraid of going out of lanes...n w the wind blowing...i was juz harding...a few pple flashed thru me...like dee asking me to kick hard...the k1 gals...nat...who was beside me anyway haha...n the juniors...then v soon it was the 500m bouy alr...
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i always tell myself the real race starts aft 500m...and i have always believed in that...rem the previous post...about practical me and the crazy whacking me?today i decided to abandon all logic n go insane...b4 the 500 bouy i started to up my cycle alr...at this point,I was starting to pull away frm nat...i wanted to say "go nat!" but somehow it cudnt come out...Jac was alr edging in front...no way man...i just up...got ito a smooth stroke...slowly,but surely...i began overtaking...
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ok...now this is really against canoeing strategy...left about 4 bouys...ill lose at last charge at the last part...coz im not a sprinter...so build up alr...3 bouys left...LAST CHARGE!!!no it was not up cycle...it was a real last charge...somehow at that point i managed to start pulling away...aft that...i was just rowing for my life...like real fear...but it was powerful to sustain the last charge...
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The only thing i remember was lots of pple shouting Jeanette...and i was like no!i canot be overtaken at this point!i begged my body to continue...i simply cannot give up now...i passed the 2nd last bouy...i juz looked ahead...making sure the whtie was on the left n the red on the right...time seemed to pass really slowly...i was totally go through the bloody bouys!plz...
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i dun even rem how i felt when i crossed the line...i juz turned left...nat was in front of jeanette...i juz screamed n shouted to nat...god knows what i said...haha...but anyway nat came in 3rd...i was damn proud of her...my only regret was not being able to cheer her on in the middle part...
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while rowing back...think i was half crying haha...when i got up sze n xt were there...n char too...sorry i dun rem the rest...i juz finished a race...so my brain wasnt functioning...1+1=1...
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i heard the pple on shore like dee n flo were crying for my race...like it was inspiring haha...i didnt really expect that haha...but im glad you all enjoyed watching me race...coz it was really the team that makes who i am today.
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after that race...i felt it was truly a miracle...like hard work can overcome talent...n dun be the person that gives up before you succeed...during training...ive never really been first...but tats what teaches me to continue fighting...do i feel depressed and inferior?yups..sometimes yes...but i noe my k1 teamates will always be there for me...like helping me during training...it really gave me the strength to overcome all that negativeness...i really owe it to you all...
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Thanx Nat,Sze,Dee...(n xiaoting...usually is we help you...but im glad you have made it this far...so thanx for always pushing so hard during training...it gives us a sense of achievement...)
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Su*

lots of heart [:

LETS GO NJ!

fight hard

the way you always do;

heart & soul

just some thoughts from me...
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i'm serious this time...seriously...haha...opps...okok...the other day i was watching prince of tennis(for your info...its an anime...)that episode was about the return of the "supersenior" captain...one that graduated a few years ago...and he talked to ryoma(the main character) about the competition-"some matches,the odds are totally against us...where we have little chance of beating our opponents...but what we do have more is our passion for tennis...don't think so much...coz it disrupts our focus and what we truly love the sport for..."these few sentences really struck me...some more b4 the race...it made me feel like im unbeatable...at least to myself...ok...im not asking you to be a brainless canoeist n go down to row juz for passion...but i feel that some of us sometimes become too calculative and competitive that we neglect the very essence of racing.
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Racing to me is like an exciting event...win or lose...i noe when i push hard...so im ok with losing to pple that are better than me.yah...even if they train less than me...it cant be helped...life is like that...
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ok...you've just witness the practical side of me...now lets move on to the warped side...
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ten seconds to start....go!whack whack whack!huff huff...whack whack whack!!!who is this?how dare this person be in front of me?i dun even care if you are national rower or olympic rower...you shall diiiieeeee...kiiiilllll...rrraaarrrwwww....gggrrrrr...500m to go?dun care....up cycle...build up...ready for last charge!!!arrhhhh...no strength alr?wateva...i din come here to slack...juz force it out....even if my arms break...juz hang on to this min...yyyaaaahhhhh....zzzooommmmm....ok...cross the finish line alr...yes!
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hmm...i guess not noeing your opponents may spell your doom coz of your ignorance....but it can be a form of bliss sometimes...you'll become fearless...n warped haha....dont mind me to much...race your racing style...im juz sharing wat my psycho mind thinks sometimes haha...gd luk to those racing tomoro!　がんばて！
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Su*

07.07.07; a day to remember (:

hello all,

i think...
today we rowed in bedok for our last time before nationals.
today we transported boats for the last time from bedok to macr.
today we ate echinecea for the last time together as a team.

i dont know how all of you feel, in fact i dont know how i feel.
but i only know that i dont want all these to be the last times we are doing them.

three more days, i know we've all worked hard. so never ever doubt yourselves ok?
we row for our juniors, our seniors, and also for this senior team.

thanks for the memories all of you have given me for the past one and a half years. i know i wont go thru all these anywhere else. EXCEPT in this team.

i love you all(:

rahrah let's go everybody!
glide&fly
-szemin

Hi pple,
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Sometimes you'll feel you don't belong...
Sometimes you'll feel you were meant for different things....
Sometimes you'll feel like you should be in a different world....
if you don't...don't stay here and make me jealous about how contented you are about your life...haha...
okok...i'm not exactly unhappy bout my life...i got the bestest best frens,the teamest teamates,the familiest family....but sometimes my mind does wander away...far away...
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i think its all the anime...its really my only salvation when im stressed or depressed....(esp during cts...opps..)but recently,ive watched 時おかける少女(the girl who leapt through time). Its a jap anime movie...but it was really nice...its bout this girl that suddenly had the power to time leapt aka time travel back to the past.She uses it to improve her life...grades and such...but soon it takes its toll on those around her...esp those she treasures...and the ending...the ending...no!i cant reveal it...sniff*...im gona start crying haha...okok...you really gotta watch this movie...
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Sometimes ill think...how come my life is not like her's? (>.<) ...

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anyway...here's the song recommendation: 「Garnet」by Hanako Oku...its the theme song from the movie...been looping it since mon haha...
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tomoro will be another special training menu haha...muz enjoy it while it lasts...evil laughter*...
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Su*