Guess wat?Yeap...I'm back.First and foremost...Regatta.Ok..we didnt win...but i guess ive seen something else...i used to think tat you have to win to feel good...i know its wrong to think tat...but i always did.But yesterday...it was not the case.After rowing four 300m of dragon boat in two days...plus trudging in the CBD with coffee in your left hand,lifejacket in your right...n the 45 sets of simple...i had for a split second doubted if i had the strength to row as hard as the rest in the finals.But when the rest of the dragon boat team gave me such earnest looks and asked me,"are you ok?you still have the strength to row?"I had my answer.I guess tats wat pple call the inner strength.
In the boat, all ten of us were gearing up..encouraging each other...for the team...the girls boat A,mixed boat...and all the rest...even if SCF was on my right,inches away from me,i didnt feel a hint of intimidation...ATTENTION...UP!!!...and there went the air horn...all i cud do was follow flo and did my best to be aggressive...aft 20 counts...my muscles were tired already...and i was like...not now...i still have a lot to go...and somehow i managed to continue...with all the other 9 gals...hoo were not individuals or superstars...but a boat tat yearned to prove itself...to break all odds...to give its all...i guess the nxt sentence is:To win the race...but not everthing is a fairytale ending...and ours was no exception.
By 150m...i think SCF caught us...i wasnt sure when...all my mind cud do was to pull,pull,pull and pull my best...even b4 the end...when i saw SCF way ahead...i dont remember givning up...all i said to mtself was its not over yet...we must catch them!admist the scene of extremem pain...there wasnt much sound...only Franklin's drumming and i think i heard Charmaine shouting PULL!but it was those stuff, and the bond between us all...tat didnt require any outward encouragement...it was right inside all of us...and all of us never gave up until the finishing line...not a single one of us did.And for tat,i'm proud of you girls...proud to have rowed with you all.
Honestly...tats all i could actually remember...the rest was a blur...coz my memory shuts down when im in races or training...guess my brain degenerates when my body works out....but boat B, dont feel discouraged...B can stand for BEST if you all really work hard...its not tat im accusing you all of not working hard, but its simply not enough.Even i feel that im not training hard enough..be it water training...running,push ups...simple...enough CANNOT exist in our dictionary...this word will simply lead to our downfall...
Sometimes i may seem nice and help you all...but i have a confession...im actually really selfish...i didnt really like sacrificing my training by slowing down to wait...i never really had to when i was in running...every trainin was juz run as fast as you can...never let your opponent catch you...but i guess its not tat beneficial to the team. When i came into NJ canoeing...its was Liyana and Meishan tat slowed down to help me...i was really useless when i first joined...cudnt even manage an easy paddle...and dun even talk about sprints...but im not sure when...i juz got beter and beter through all the hell trainings they put me through...Olivia and Sze also helped a lot...n not forgetting Cheryl n Flo...im sorry for forgetin all tat,having such selfish thoughts.for now...i guess aft admitin my mistakes...i hope to correct it...for the team,for all those tat have helped me b4...and if i ever think selfishly again...plz juz slap me on the face to wake up my idea...