To the sixteen of you;
After a few of you went up during debrief today, to point out how insensitive some of us have been, I went home to really think about this problem. I am really sorry cos I know im always one of those who push others to such an extent that I dont even know how they feel. Ive always thought that harsh methods work the best. Maybe it only applies to me.
To those of you whom ive let down,
Im really apologetic on what Ive done all along. Im in no position to question all of your hard work. Cos I know a lot of you put in much more effort than me in many aspects. I know you all have given your best in all the trngs, really.
About the juniors, its really great to see them improve so much over this short period of 4 months plus. You know it really makes me feels happy to see them mature in terms of attitude and also improve in their canoeing. It makes all the effort we've put in worthwhile. Personally, I dont like the idea of juniors catching up with me. This is because I think its jus not right. And I know all of you dont want that too cos you all know you've worked so much harder and longer than them. But sometimes, things jus dont work out that perfectly. Im really sorry to say that... but from now on, I believe that no matter what the boat speeds of you snr girls are, I will still respect you all. Cos the boat speeds dont mean anything to me alr. I think that what's most important is what you have put in in every of your strokes. It's the things that are going thru your mind when you are rowing. Who are you rowing for etc etc.
And jus to share with all of you, when I'm rowing, my whole mind is flooded with many thoughts (row for someone, something, somehow, somewhere). But actually I dont really know what exactly I'm thinking of. Everything is so messed up. Ironically, on those days when my mind is so focused thinking of a specific thing, I cannot perform. It sort of corresponds to what mr yong always says, when you anyhow anyhow, thats when ure at your best. I dont really know how true is that..
To my k1 girls,
It's really great trng with all three of you. All the trngs have been so tough but yet endurable (cos you all are around). Sometimes when I train with you girls, I can really feel myself trying to squeeze out energy from every single part of my body. From all my muscles to even my intestines.. thanks for always being so encouraging. I really love you all, dee nat su. Without you all, I wouldnt be typing all these, cos I would have alr died in one of those earlier trngs. Yupp thanks.
The main point of this entry is to tell you all that im sorry okays. I will wake up my idea from now on. If you all think I can ever help you all in any way, please tell me yeahhs cos I really want to help.
To all senior girls, thanks for always being there for me even though I'm such a bad girl. (:
sze
After a few of you went up during debrief today, to point out how insensitive some of us have been, I went home to really think about this problem. I am really sorry cos I know im always one of those who push others to such an extent that I dont even know how they feel. Ive always thought that harsh methods work the best. Maybe it only applies to me.
To those of you whom ive let down,
Im really apologetic on what Ive done all along. Im in no position to question all of your hard work. Cos I know a lot of you put in much more effort than me in many aspects. I know you all have given your best in all the trngs, really.
About the juniors, its really great to see them improve so much over this short period of 4 months plus. You know it really makes me feels happy to see them mature in terms of attitude and also improve in their canoeing. It makes all the effort we've put in worthwhile. Personally, I dont like the idea of juniors catching up with me. This is because I think its jus not right. And I know all of you dont want that too cos you all know you've worked so much harder and longer than them. But sometimes, things jus dont work out that perfectly. Im really sorry to say that... but from now on, I believe that no matter what the boat speeds of you snr girls are, I will still respect you all. Cos the boat speeds dont mean anything to me alr. I think that what's most important is what you have put in in every of your strokes. It's the things that are going thru your mind when you are rowing. Who are you rowing for etc etc.
And jus to share with all of you, when I'm rowing, my whole mind is flooded with many thoughts (row for someone, something, somehow, somewhere). But actually I dont really know what exactly I'm thinking of. Everything is so messed up. Ironically, on those days when my mind is so focused thinking of a specific thing, I cannot perform. It sort of corresponds to what mr yong always says, when you anyhow anyhow, thats when ure at your best. I dont really know how true is that..
To my k1 girls,
It's really great trng with all three of you. All the trngs have been so tough but yet endurable (cos you all are around). Sometimes when I train with you girls, I can really feel myself trying to squeeze out energy from every single part of my body. From all my muscles to even my intestines.. thanks for always being so encouraging. I really love you all, dee nat su. Without you all, I wouldnt be typing all these, cos I would have alr died in one of those earlier trngs. Yupp thanks.
The main point of this entry is to tell you all that im sorry okays. I will wake up my idea from now on. If you all think I can ever help you all in any way, please tell me yeahhs cos I really want to help.
To all senior girls, thanks for always being there for me even though I'm such a bad girl. (:
sze