If you believe,miracles do happen.
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That is like a super common kinda saying...i used to think that pple that think like that are juz lying to themselves...but it happened during the Perlis race...i rem we were last(4th)...budden coz we alr lost the jun mens race...we really din want to lose AGAIN...i was at the brink of madness...really...i mean...i wasnt like myself anymore...n we juz...i dunno...grrarhh...n we squeezed in to a 3rd...yar...we din get 1st...but to me it was the first time i actually believe miracles existed....
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2nd time was during SDBF...i duno what the hell happened...but it was really a fight til the end...we were all so desperate....n the last charge was impossible unless you are crazy...which we were haha...
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Actually,before nationals...i already knew who my opponents were...i mean...i didnt intentionally want to track down who they were...but i juz knew...was i afraid?sorry to disappoint you pple...yes i was...
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but at least for the heats,i tried to go in with a calm mind...juz whack...doesnt matter.but at that time...i was sort of numb...like i din really care much at winning...it was the lets go down n race attitude...not the i will crush whoeva is in my path! attitude...so i guess it was mentally weak for me...i guess i was lucky in the heats...but i din feel good winning it that way...so it did wake me up abit...
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I didn't dare to believe in miracles...coz its like the impossible...impossible is not supposed to happen everyday juz in case you were wondering...haha...but today was not juz a normal day...
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I told myself i cannot lose at the start...coz i'm a sort of catching up person...i usually am behind than i slowly catch up...so my starts are not that good...but today i really tried to push hard for the starts...sprinting trainin really showed its effect...my start lasted til aft the first bouy....i was on par w the other 3 of them...
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aft tat...i was trying desperately to control my body...tapped once...grrr...n direction was abit off...i was v afraid of going out of lanes...n w the wind blowing...i was juz harding...a few pple flashed thru me...like dee asking me to kick hard...the k1 gals...nat...who was beside me anyway haha...n the juniors...then v soon it was the 500m bouy alr...
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i always tell myself the real race starts aft 500m...and i have always believed in that...rem the previous post...about practical me and the crazy whacking me?today i decided to abandon all logic n go insane...b4 the 500 bouy i started to up my cycle alr...at this point,I was starting to pull away frm nat...i wanted to say "go nat!" but somehow it cudnt come out...Jac was alr edging in front...no way man...i just up...got ito a smooth stroke...slowly,but surely...i began overtaking...
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ok...now this is really against canoeing strategy...left about 4 bouys...ill lose at last charge at the last part...coz im not a sprinter...so build up alr...3 bouys left...LAST CHARGE!!!no it was not up cycle...it was a real last charge...somehow at that point i managed to start pulling away...aft that...i was just rowing for my life...like real fear...but it was powerful to sustain the last charge...
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The only thing i remember was lots of pple shouting Jeanette...and i was like no!i canot be overtaken at this point!i begged my body to continue...i simply cannot give up now...i passed the 2nd last bouy...i juz looked ahead...making sure the whtie was on the left n the red on the right...time seemed to pass really slowly...i was totally go through the bloody bouys!plz...
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i dun even rem how i felt when i crossed the line...i juz turned left...nat was in front of jeanette...i juz screamed n shouted to nat...god knows what i said...haha...but anyway nat came in 3rd...i was damn proud of her...my only regret was not being able to cheer her on in the middle part...
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while rowing back...think i was half crying haha...when i got up sze n xt were there...n char too...sorry i dun rem the rest...i juz finished a race...so my brain wasnt functioning...1+1=1...
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i heard the pple on shore like dee n flo were crying for my race...like it was inspiring haha...i didnt really expect that haha...but im glad you all enjoyed watching me race...coz it was really the team that makes who i am today.
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after that race...i felt it was truly a miracle...like hard work can overcome talent...n dun be the person that gives up before you succeed...during training...ive never really been first...but tats what teaches me to continue fighting...do i feel depressed and inferior?yups..sometimes yes...but i noe my k1 teamates will always be there for me...like helping me during training...it really gave me the strength to overcome all that negativeness...i really owe it to you all...
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Thanx Nat,Sze,Dee...(n xiaoting...usually is we help you...but im glad you have made it this far...so thanx for always pushing so hard during training...it gives us a sense of achievement...)
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